Mmm.. i'm at my mothers work cause i have a neurologist appointment today and my mother is the one taking me and she needed to come to work.. so here i am. My neck hurts - i'm going to the chiropractor tomorrow (who haooens ti be a total hottie) so hopefully that will clear up that problem among the others i have been facing.

   My sister is in town from Minnesota, so thats pretty exciting considering the fact that i never get to see her. So far we are geting along pretty well, which is cool cause she and i were a little worried about perhaps us getting into fights or something like we used to. She's moving back down here with us at the beginning of the summer - but i dont think she's living with us cause she couldnt get into UT cause you need a 3.5 (or possibly it was a 3.6? i dont remembers which) and she has like.. a 3.45 or something- and they dont round it up. She and I are a little bummed about that, but we have good reasons to be.

   I had an allergy test today.. its not so much fun sitting on a slab of crinkly paper with your top half exposed while people put pricks into your back.. not fun at all. Not to mention, after that they gave me 33 shots of different stuff that i could be allergic to. >_< those ones kinda hurt but i was tough and sucked it up. The places where the nurse put the needles in started bleeding and that was a little.. blegh.. didnt make me feel any better. But overall, i was glad to finally have an allergy test so that we could get allergies out of the way and see if anything else may be causing my migranes... hence the reason i'm going to the neurologist.

   I'm going to a Maroon 5 concert tonight with my father and sister - and that should be  exciting. We get to go backstage and meet with the band alone.. without all of the screaming girls saying how much they love them.  They're just normal people who happen to be gifted with some area of music... They're not God. But.. whatev, people are people they can think whatever they want. SO anyways, thats something that i am looking forward to... i realize not many people get chances like i do, i mean to meet bands and stuff. I wish i could take Bri with me or something, that would make it a lot more fun -but we all know that wont be happening.

   It's getting kind of s=chilly again. Texas is weird.. it'll be hot.. i mean like, 70 degrees one day and then the next day it drops down to 52 - whats up with that? There is never anything in between. Man.. i just realized what a huge complainer I am.. as if i could magically change the weather anyways?

   Well i went on MySpace today, just to look around cause i had gotten an email from them (i'm not quite sure how they got my email address, but i think i'd rather NOT know.Joseph had requested to be on my friends list, because apparantly i've subscribed?? He has some nasty girls on his friensd list.. talk about whores.  Don't you hate when you dont remember doing something like that and then you never go back to the site but the're still sending you these stupid emails twice a day, just trying to get you to go visit the site? Me too, man.

 Well i suppose thats all for today, i'll write more some other day about how my Spring Break isnt even a vacation anymore, just simply school-away-from-school.

                          - Kristen

Hmm well i feel blah. I've been going to doctors more often than ever lately.. we're still trying to figure out whats causing all of my headaches. I stayed home from school today cause i had a really bad one - and of course its still here. I've been feeling really weird lately though, just bleh. Like, i feel like i'm desensitized or something, i havent been feeling very much lately - simply because i dont want to allow myself to. I know that there are a lot of feelings still locked inside of me from moving, and that makes things hard. I want to stay in touch with my friends in Minnesota, and its becoming harder and harder - but Brianna and I have maintained a good relationship so far, so thats good. Kate and i are trying to make it work, we're starting to send a notebook back and forth to each other and hopefully that might make our friendship stronger. Other than that, the only person i talk to from Minnesota is Jen, who is pretty awesome, shes better than i remember. There was a period of time where i couldnt stand her and i was really mad at her and whenever she was around, i was in a bad mood, but i dont know- from the way she seems online now, i think shes more of a person i would like.                      

       Here in Texas, things are okay. I'm not going to complain. I'm making good grades, i have a small group of friends and i'm making more as i go along. Everything is still hard, and there is no one who can replace my friends in Minnesota - and what hurts me is that i dont have nearly as many friends as i did in Minnesota... and i like to have a lot of friends surrounding me, and looking up to me. I liked a guy named Nick, who used to sit in front of me in Math and then our seats got changed and we dont really talk very much anymore, and thats a bummer. But he's a really popular guy at Bowie and he's soooo attractive, so i'm not surprised that our relationship didnt last that long. I mean, as friends. He gave me his phone number, put it in my contacts on my cell phone - that was exciting, but then i would text him (cause he is a big texter) and most of the time i he would ignore it, and that got on my nerves. Eventually i just blew texting him off cause it made me angry. Sometimes i feel like the friends i have here, arent the people i want to be hanging out with. At least two of them because they dont really seem to like me and my personality doesnt mesh with them very well. But Shannon and Maritza are close friends of mine, and i like talking to them and stuff. Shannon isnt a very serious person though, she doesnt talk about feelings. I am the kind of person who always talks about how i feel and i want to know how the other person feels, and Maritza is more like me in that aspect. So, thats cool.

   My Birthday is coming up in 2 weeks from today. March 24th, and i'm not quite sure what we're going to do for the party, all i know is some friends are sleeping over and we're renting some movies and we have to figure out something else we want to do. We WERE going to go bowling, but the bowling alleys around here have leagues on Thursday's, so we cant do that. Who knows, i'll have to think up something. Well anyways, my head is starting to feel worse from staring at this screen - so i think i'll skidaddle.

<3 Kristen

 The Switchfoot concert was awesome, they were here with The Format and The Honorary Title (who i cant stand.) So that was exciting.. The Yellowcard concert is tomorrow and i'm not going cause i didnt know until wednesday that it was tomorrow. Kelly just happened to ask me if i was going (kelly from TX) an i was like, WHOA!?! WHAT!?! It was crazy.
 I got a new straightner.. i'm pretty excited about that. Man, i'm lame.
   Erm so i've heard about how jimmy is completely screwing up his life doing drugs and stuff- and he's like.. the opposite kid from who i used to know. Its insane, and honestly.. its not a good thing. But whatever - he wont listen to anyone when they tell him that he's doing something really bad, or whatever.. so.. really thats just his fault and until he starts listening to people.. things probably wont change. So, lets hope that happens soon.
Well me and Bobby's relationship is getting better - i mean we dont talk like, about life or anything - we dont even talk hardly. Basically we just flirt and junk in Algebra and Geography. I dunno. Theres some guy who likes me who went to Covington and he's in my Geography class - he's friends with Bobby. I would never go out with the guy.. so.. *shrugs*
  As of right now i'm making a 49 in English, so i'm pretty unhappy about that. Being in Pre-AP is NO excuse for a grade like THAT, therefor, i wont even TRY to make it one. The rest of my grades are really good.

 Home life sucks now. Since my aunt and cousin came its been a hell hole every day. Suddenly my family is extremely tight on money and i cant go shopping until my parents finally pay me for my damn report card - which i got last week and they cant pay me until December. *growls* Its messed up, we were never tight on money BEFORE and now all of a sudden its like gremlins came and stole all our money. *mumbles* stupid gremlins..
 Me n Bri are close and it makes me happy.  [insert smiley face HERE] I'm really excited to come up to Minnesota in December. Its only like.. a month and 10 days and i'm totally stoked. Seeing Bri and Kate and Matt again is going to like.. make my year.. literally. Not to mention - me and bri will be spending New Years together [insert smiley face HERE] i'm not sure if she knows/realizes that but.. yahh! If she reads this - then she'll obviously know if she doesnt already. But anyways! I am really really excited for that, just thinking about it gives me the chills.
     Speaking of going back to Minnesota, i still like Matt. I dont know - like.. i do, and then i dont. Its weird. Its a girl thing i guess. It's hard to like someone when you barely talk to them but like - Matt is Matt. I think about when i was up there in the Summer and like.. my heart melts. Yeahh.. i dont even know if he knows that i still have some pretty strong feelings for him. WHATEV! Nevertheless, Chris is going out with Holly and at first i was like angry for some weird reason - i'm guessing just jealousy flaring up.. who knows? But now i'm good, afterall - what will me getting angry do but worsen the situation?

 I leave Friday for some condo by a lake somewhere in Texas.
   .. Man.. check out my elaboration. ^^^.. duuuuuude.
But anyways, i'm really excited about that because i really need a break and my mother knows that i'm DYING to go shopping so i think shes going to let me get like.. at LEAST a shirt or something. So.. it's cool. Not to mention - my sister is coming in on Monday cause she something happened in minnesota thats like sort of a long story, but not really. I just am feeling a bit lazy now. But Nonetheless, i am still euphoric about seeing her.. cause shes my sister - and we were pretty close. For the most part.

                           Ack! I have lots of homework and i have to practice for my clarinet and singing lessons that are tomorrow so i must take my leave!
                                                                <3 Kristen

 I just got back from Shannon's house, we had a lotta fun! I'm getting closer to my friends and it feels good to know that i'm still.. likeable? I guess thats the word you could use. Yeah, so thats cool. We all made these cool bags and junk and i really like mine ^_^ its uberly cute. Anyways - we all went to sunday school this morning, and like, i was getting so mad cause one of the other girls in my class was like trying to challenge me and trying to make me feel like she knew more than i did about the Bible and that i should just shut my mouth and stuff. I dont think she meant to.. or maybe she did? I dont really know, but it was dflgmjdf;lg. PLUS i wasnt the only one who noticed! All my friends noticed too, so its not like it was just my imagination.
I think i'm gonna go buy the Less Than Jake CD. Matthew told me to but i was a little iffy about it since i didnt really remember them in a good light. OH. I took a picture of Christopher that he sent me and showed it to my friends at the sleepover. They were all like.. WHOA HE'S CUTE!.. wow.. he's really tall *funny face* lol, they were like why did you go out with someone that much taller than you - it was pretty funny. We rented Thirteen and they liked the movie so that was cool. >_< I need to go shopping soon, i'm like going insane cause i havent been in so long - its crazy! I really need to practice my clarinet and my guitar cause i have guitar lessons on Tuesday and then my clarinet lessons on Thursday.. *hmmz* oh, and my singing lessons. BLEH!!! I do it when i feel like it - and right now.. i dont.. so i wont.
Me and my father are going to the gym tomorrow morning so thats always something to look forward to.. i like going to the gym - its invigorating!!

.. WHOA!! THIS SONG IS AWESOME!! I like the lyrics.. Erm.. hold on lemme get the name of it.. okay.. so i cant find the name of it.. but lemme write down the lyrics in here and then i'm gonna go sit outside or something - its a nice day. Maybe i'll paint ^_^

 mmkay, i looked for like.. 15 minutes and couldnt figure it out.. so.. screw that. Oh well, its a good song anyways!

                                         <3 Kristen

 Yeah okay so right now, like.. my life.. is going.. GREAT!! I'm pretty happy with how everything is going including my life here in Texas and my friendships in Minnesota. Me and Bri rule and our friendship is still strong and stuff like that and we talk about everything and anything. Erm.. i talked to Matthew.. two days ago? Yeah, i think thats right. Anyways it was great- it was like old times when we talked FOREVER about like everything. ^_^ whew, i missed those times - its great to have them back. Well he likes this girl Holly who apparantly likes Chris and Chris likes Holly too - and Matthew found out that Holly doesnt like him as more than a friend so he gave Chris the OK to ask her out. I think that was pretty cool of him, especially since like every girl that Matthew has liked for like the past year has ended up going out with Christopher. I dont know though, i'd go out with Matthew ^_^ he rawks my sawks. He gave me some songs from Less Than Jake and like i never thought i was going to listen to them again cause i saw them in concert at the NFG concert? They were an opening act anyways - and they SUCKED like.. really bad. I was like O_O GET OFF THE STAGE!! Yeah.. But like i'm listening to them now and they rule.. so its cool. They make me happy, like i want to jump around and act all cRaZy!! lol which reminds me of Matthew, which makes me even happier! I dont know - i miss him A LOT now and its like driving me INSANNEEE!! I cant wait to see him again and give him a biiiiig hug. Speaking of hugs -- i was talking to Bri yesterday and she mentioned how i used to give her this HUGE hug after 3rd period and she'd have to like drag me down the hall, lol. We both miss that a lot, and i miss it like a whole whole lot cause i havent had a hug since i moved here - except for one and that was from Shannon - and it wasnt like the kind me and Bri gave eachother. So i'm really looking forward to seeing her when i get off the plane!! MAN IT GIVES ME THE WILLYS JUST THINKING ABOUT IT!!! ^_^ Man, that'll be the day. See, the great thing is that i know the face she'll make when she sees me to come give me a hug, which like, makes it even better. And then i think about Matt and how it'll be when we hug, and that like drives me WILD!! I dont know why, he's just so damn hawt ^_^ lol, anyways yeah. SO my eyes are still screwed up and its pissing me off!! I went to the doctor yesterday and he said that he wants to see me in 2 months - unless my headaches persist then he wants to have me back earlier to do a spinal tap *cringes* I'm just hoping it goes away so i dont have to wear these stupid eye patches when i go to Minnesota. I GUESS WE'LL FIND OUT!! Anyways - so thats like how excited I am about seeing those two people - and then i'm excited to see Kate too cause she RULES!! and she knows it too ^_^ lol, thinknig about when i'll get to see her is quite the joy too!!! We shall have fun when i go up there. THEN THERES ALWAYS THE CRAZY AZN!! Hopefully things will be better than the last time i saw her, lol. Oh well - she still rules to the max! and then theres kelly too!! woOt! I shall give her a big hug when i see her =) its gonna be the BOMB!! *faints*

 Well tonight i'm going to this like big slumber party thing with Maritza, Shannon and Julie and we're gonna make these like bag things and we went out and got all the supplies last night and it was uberly cool. Maritza didnt get to go cause we didnt have her number but we got her art stuff too so she'll be set to go ^_^ And then on Sunday we're all going to my church and we're gonna ROCK THE HOUSE!! Mwahahha! Anyways, lol. Okay i HAVE to type these lyrics in here because they're driving me crazy and like they make me think about Matt and it makes me HAPPAY!!

And i swear its the last time
And i swear its my last try
And we'll walk in cirlces around this whole block
Walk on the cracks on the same old sidewalks
And we'll talk about leavin town
And we'll talk about leavin
I swear its the last time
And i swear its my last try

  Man you guys cant comprehend how happy this song makes me - it makes me think about Matt and all the great times we had and then it makes me think about Bri and how he used to stay up late talking and play video games and basically just like all the great times i ever had with my GREAT friends in Minnesota - AHHH!!! *dances*

                                                               <3 Kristen

Okay i know i havent written in a long time, but i'm telling you that i will verry soon. It's gonna be cool cause i got a package for my phone so i can send pictures! YAY! you shall see all. Anyways - its cool so i shall write soon. I must talk about bri and how i miss her and how i went to church to paint kiddies faces on halloween ^_^

            <3 Kristen

 Blegh, so yes - i am still sick.. my sinuses are KILLING me. *cringes* Well anyways, i went to the Norah Jones concert on Thursday and that was pretty fun. I didnt know she was so cute ^_^ My father bought me a T-shirt but, okay get this - wtf. Their t-shirts were 30 bucks. O_O GEEZE! Well we left before her last song cause we didnt want to get caught up in all the traffic there was going to be after the show. Well we walked out to our car and got in the already-there line and then we just sat in one spot for about 30 minutes until it finally moved. We couldve just stayed for the last song and gotten out at the same time, pfft. Yesterday i went to school, n then i got home n crashed on the couch until my mother got home, and then she took me to applebees. Then we came back home, i got in the jacuzzi and then crashed again for another few hours. THEN i woke up at 1:00 AM and went to get in my bed. Blegh - as you can imagine i woke up at least 10 times last night because i wasnt tired anymore. Shannon's birthday is on the 28th, so she is having a birthday party n stuff.. i'm probably going to go to that, hopefully i can still mesh with people. I also just read Bri's journal and apparantly she cant come to Texas.. so.. i'm pretty bummed about that as you can imagine But meh, i suppose this thing she is going on is a once in a lifetime chance so.. ergh. So i guess its official that Kate is moving at the end of the year, i didnt know it was like, affirmative yet. Well, that sucks royally and.. i dont know how i feel about that.  But anyways, i'm really starting to feel ill - i feel like my face is going to blow off >_< So.. i think thats a good sign that i should go.

                                                                     <3 Kristen

 Well today was an amazingly good day. First we took the PSAT and i ended up acoring a 154 - and last year, the average score for the juniors was 146.. so.. i'm pretty smart, and that makes me happy after being called stupid so many times by that STUPID azn. *snickers* You get commended in the state of Texas if you make a.. 190? Something like that - so i'm not TOO far away, i could easily get there with a couple of prep. classes.

 It rained during lunch.. man i forgot how much i love rain. It was so nice to have it rain again and it felt awesome cause we were eating outside and you know how that aroma of rain is intoxicating.. it just made my day 5x better. Food is becoming scarce during my lunch period.. i've stopped buying lunch but i'm stupid and never pack my lunch in the morning/night.. so i shove some graham crackers in my backpack and run out the door. BLEGH! Well sa i am talking about school - i have homework tonight.. a 100 word paper on the theme of a story we read in English the day i was adsent.. but.. i'm not doing it simply because i JUST DONT WANT TO. And i dont have enough time.. and i dont want to ruin my great day by doing complicated homework. I'll just do it tomorrow or something. I have clarinet lessons tomorrow and its going to suck major ass because i havent practiced AT ALL and he's going to expect me to be really good but i cant play the assignments really well. Plus, since i've been seeing double i cant exactly read music very well anymore. Although, i had my mother write me a note just in case i'm having to strain my eyes too much to read it. BUT i dont even know where my music books are so.. i'm more or less freaking out about that. I have singing lessons tomorrow too.. but i dont feel like i have to impress my singing teacher, cause she rules. Plus, i'm not too shabby at singing, whereas i'm not too great at clarinet. You get the point.

 Well we went out to eat tonight. It was SO fabulous. Right after school i had to go to the chiropractor, got things adjusted o_O cept this time he like.. was feeling my pelvic bones so it was a little different... cause you know. But.. MEH, he's attractive to say the least. Umm, then i went to my GP and talked to him about my eyes being whacked out.. and he's sending me to an optamologist so we have to make an appointment for that now. He doesnt know whats wrong with me cause i show no signs of any reason that i should be seeing double.. so.. its different. Then we went to the radio station to meet up with my dad, cept we were early so i got to rummage through the CD collection  I got.. Howie Day, Evanescense (i left my last one in MN), Avril Lavigne (.. i like her more than i used to.. i've learned more about her personality.) the new Bowling for Soup, anndd Hoobastank.. annnd.. Oh cmon i know there was one more.. OH Gavin DeGraw. Then i looked through all of the bands/people that had sent my dad singles that they want him to play.. that was interesting. Muchos artists - ones that we happen to know. >=) The bands that i look up to are asking my father to play their music.. i like it, i feel powerful! Specially cause my father asks me for suggestions on if i think which things are good - like last night he asked me if he should play Lenny Kravitz - Lady? that new song on the Target commercial - or Dare You To Move by Switchfoot.. i said Switchfoot. Soooo thats what hes playing! Umm anyways, we went out to eat at this really expensive restuarant, Ruths Chris, it has the BEST steak you have EVER tasted *mouth waters* God Christopher would LOVE this place, their rare is SO RARE is like.. still alive. But.. i like it Well Done.. lol we're totally opposite. Anyways, it was soooo nummy and like they had mashed potatoes "with a hint of garlic" and spinach al gratin? GROSS. Blegh. Andd potatoes al gratin - yum. Oh it was so tastey.. and dessert - well my piece of cake tasted like a huge bar of dark chocolate - it was much too sweet for my taste.. so basically i just scraped all of the raspberry sauce off the plate, lol it was decoration but it was NUMMY! Anyways, we talked for like.. 3 hours and it was SO funny. I mean, this is Norah Jones' manager, and you know this big record rep. so sfkgjd. Plus Nicole came along with us, and shes totally awesome. She works for my father and shes a sweetheart. And yeah - so now i'm back and i'm really happy. PLUS when i got back home, i looked on my journal and i see that Chris has written that our relationship was great. so.. that makes me happier than most of you can comprehend.. unless you're Bri. Plus, Bri left me a message too, so letting me know she luffs me and all that good stuff - what more could you ask for? =) I love you guys!

  BUT ANYWAYS! I need to be going because it is quite late and even though i'm not going to do my english homework, i'm still going to do my Social Studies homework.. so.. yah! ^_^

                                                                  <3 Kristen

  Well i finally got some feelings out to Chris after holding them out for a long 6 months. I finally told him that it seems like he isnt very pleased with how our relationship was (since everyone knows i thought it was like.. the highlight of my life and the best time of my life so far.) BUT! What canya do? besides, he didnt reply and i dont think i want him to since i have a certain response in my head that i'm almost positive isnt the one i'm going to get. Blegh, i'm sick of talking about his and my relationship - he and i have two different feelings about how it actually was and it doesnt feel good to be the person who thought it was going great. Mmm my jealousy is shining through, i must go on away on AIM.

 Whew. Okay i feel a little bit better. Wow okay so i just upgraded my RealPlayer and i searched my computer for like.. EVERY mp3 it contained and i'm realizing there are all these really great songs that i forgot about. Like Pretty Girl by Sugarcult.. geeze that song STILL gives me the chills. And Free by Powerman 5000? Tis quite exciting, really. I had guitar lessons today, and i learned another phrase from When Sept. Ends by Green Day. My teacher really likes the song, so he gets pretty into it and its awesome to the max. He thinks i have good taste.. which is a pretty big compliment coming from him. I need to practice my guitar more.. i need to get better >=)

    TODAY WAS BRIANNAS BIRTHDAY!! Not that it made a huge difference in my day.. considering that i'm not there my schedule doesnt change a whole lot. I wrote her a letter during band - and i'm gonna add onto it probably later tonight. I swear she's the person that keeps me going in this hell hole. Apparantly Kate has been buying me things that she thinks i will like - thats pretty awesome, she rawks. I havent talked to her in a long time though, at least not like a serious conversation that you get really into it and stuff. I dont know. Anyways, Brianna and I are probably closer than ever and its amazing since i'm 1000 miles away. Its great, this is when you know who your true friends are - the ones that withhold the distance.

My father and i are getting closer - as well as my mother. I go outside a lot when my dad is smoking/working the logs for the radio station and we talk briefly about whatever is going on lately in our lives, or whatever is coming up. We're going out to eat tomorrow night - Norah Jones' manager wants to take my family out for dinner.. expensive dining $$$ It's yummy stuff, man. Last time we went to some big Chinese place that was all fancy with the big grills in front of you.. or whatver you wanna call them. Boy.. that was really fun. Reminds me of Benihanas.. where Brianna is going for her birthday dinner tonight.. *grimaces* Wow. I had to look up the definition to make sure my diction was correct, and that was like.. the PERFECT word choice. 
grimace - A sharp contortion of the face expression of pain
Score. Anyways. My mother and i go out to eat a lot lately.. whether that means Taco Bell or Johnny Carinos, its still going out to eat. We avoid coming to the house at all costs so that we don't have to deal with my younger cousin.. I will have to tell you about that the next entry cause right now - i feel like laying down.. and watchin some TV!! Or possibly hopping in the jacuzzi for a little bit.

                                                                        <3 Kristen

 Oh, Yeah - Marching Band had UIL tonight (a HUGE competition in the.. south? idk. its big somewhere other than just Texas.) so i'll have to tell you how that went tomorrow.. Our band is AWESOME - Mr. Dinkins wants to be in the top 5 of the nation - so.. its hard work. Thank god i'm not in Marching Band.